The husband and I have had a few things going on recently and last night came to a realisation. One which was scary and upsetting but that we know with the wonderful support of my family, once we finally tell them all, we will get through, together, somehow.
I woke up early this morning feeling more refreshed than I had in a long time. Worried still as it will be a long, difficult road ahead but I was reminded of the "Serenity Prayer"; one which so many of us are familiar of just the first verse but I knew that the original was longer so I decided to look it up and share it today.
"God, give me grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.
(c) Reinhold Niebuhr 1950
I am not sure of my faith at the moment although I do like to think of a higher power being able to guide me somehow. I guess, for my husband and myself, this a real turning point in us as individuals and as a couple and means a lot of changes which we have already started to talk through.
Mostly though, this for me is about taking each hour, day, week as it comes and not worrying too much about the future which I am unable to control. About learning to let go of mistakes that I've made on the way and accepting that there is nothing I can do about them.
I guess this is the start of a new personal journey that I know will not be without pitfalls.